Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Tick Tock

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I type this post on my DH's ancient desktop computer. My laptop was having some issues during the past week and yesterday afternoon I finally took it to the computer doctor. It's still in the shop. All day long today (until my DH went to the gym so I could read and type alone in peace) I have not been able to be online. I really hope we won't be buying a new laptop this weekend, but it could happen. Sigh.

My DH gives me Delestrogen shots on Wednesdays and Saturdays. We used to do them at night, around 8:30pm or so, but the day long wait just increased his anxiety. So last Saturday we decided to do it mid-afternoon. It worked out great. Today we did the same thing. I iced my cheek for about 15 minutes, drew an ink circle in the proper spot (a target helps him focus) and laid on the bed, exposing my red, icy hip to the ceiling. He has this purpose tremor that is unbelievable. His hand wobbles and shakes and it's frightening as hell to watch. No amount of "practice" will help. It's an anxiety issue. But you know what? I don't care anymore. With an O.reo cookie sized frozen area on my bum, I just don't care. I can't feel it. I smile and say, "Good job, hon!" and he's all proud of himself. His mastery of good form just ain't gonna happen. In the end it only matters that the doggone med gets into my muscle. Results. Right?

With a fresh dose in my veins, I'm just waiting for Friday's U/S. And news about my poor computer.
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7 comments:

cindyhoo2 said...

I love your positive attitude about getting less-than-desireable injections. At some point in this process we just sort of internally sigh and think "eh, a baby will be much more painful (to deliver) than this shot is to get in my sore bum. Bring it!" I am sure your DH also feels better with how kind you are being as well. Still keeping my fingers crossed that Friday brings a nice fluffy lining.

In terms of the laptop, I feel you on that one. My own ancient laptop has now lost it's "v" key and has hinge issues, but I need to not buy a new one until after the donor cycle. So I am still using the sad thing and praying it holds for another 6 months.

musicmakermomma said...

Yay for ice. I think in many ways the IM shots are easier because I ice up first - maybe I should try it for my lupron? I've never needed to before but for whatever reason I am really having trouble, maybe that means this cycle will be different!

just me, dawn said...

i applaud your positive attitude towards those shots :) and it is amazing the things we do almost without mention....for the sake of a child...someday.

IVF 40+ said...

I was more nervous about DH with the needle than the pain of the shots. He managed to inject his own finger at one point!! I spent an hour doing the fallen hero routine !

C Lo said...

Aw, poor guy. :)

stillhopeful said...

Nothing like being knee deep in the waiting game and not having online access!! You must be going stir crazy - I know I would be! Hang in there, I think this is going to be your cycle!

Alex P said...

You need to publish this as a book. People need to know they arent alone, and youre so amazingly gifted with communication. Your words are awesome!