Friday, September 11, 2009

Shake it Off

Today started like a big bowl of crappola for me. It is the anniversary of two sad events, plus I'm all wound up at my spouse.

If you really want to read about it, it's the previous post. But I hate feeling sorry for myself for more than a split second and I wanted to delete the post. Fran thought I should keep it up. Okay, maybe. We'll see.

But it's time to move on and focus on happier things. Super happy things. Super-dee-duper-fantastically-wonderful happy things.

Cindy should have had her transfer this morning! Two sweet embryos should be settling in and making their way to implantation! Oh, Cindy, I'm so hopeful that you will get a strong BFP in 2 weeks. I hope all went well (didn't see a post on your blog yet) and I just want you to know I rose from my wallowing this morning to think happy thoughts for you.

I hope that one day, September 11th can come to mean happier things for us all.
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12 comments:

tireegal68 said...

Oh that is a bad bad day! Wow. So sorry about your friend: That is so cruel. I wonder if her attacker got jail time and how her child is doing? Hugs. It's a hard day to get through today -my advice stay away from the tv and send prayers to all who were lost or lost loved ones and to our world for being broken. as for hubs, I hope you talk to him. I can go there too and I have found that I am angry because I am scared of how things might go and how my dreams might be shattered and if I tell that part first the name calling and wild blanket accusations are less likely to come. Lots of hugs to you.

cindyhoo2 said...

You are so sweet to think of me today. Thank you. The transfer went well and I have been home sleeping off my Valium all afternoon.

I am truly touched by your thoughtfulness..... how I wish we could be nextdoor neighbors.

musicmakermomma said...

Girl, your comments (on my blog) always crack me up! Thanks.

And I agree you should leave the rant up. We don't always feel like sunshine is shining out our ****s! I had the same feeling about my "rant post", but sometimes ya just have to rant.

Sorry this day has such terrible personal significance for you. Makes the non-support even harder. But I must say my spouse has always really come through regarding the child - and this kind of shocked me since he was just awful during the pg. I really AM in charge of all family type events - which I HATE. Just because it would be nice if he thought - let's go camping! or something. But never. Oh well. A parade is definitely in order for the water, it's a bit stretch for my boy!

Hang in there, and surround yourself with girlfriends!

K said...

I don't think you should delete the post. It's an important piece of what's going on in your life, in this whole deal, and well...everything else. We lost a nephew on this day 7 years ago. It's just a sad day and it shapes who we all are.

All of that said, I really hope you and the not-today-dear H get the hash out on the table. Had our share of that too...although I am chalking it up to the men are from mars syndrome. Sigh...it sounds good anyway.
Take care,
K

Fran said...

That's my girl! I too absolutely hate feeling sorry for myself, you must have noticed, I really think it's just a waste of time honestly and we are much more productive when we are able to move on. I just read again recently one of my July posts (something like "where's my enthusiasm?") and oh boy, it was definitely the pill making me feel so low! I loved that cycle, it went so well, I know I'll go again hopeful for a better outcome. But who doesn't have a bad day? So I don't want you to think, in a few days when everything will be fine again, "Gee, how could I write such a blue post?", you did at that's ok. Much love, Fran

optimisticallyhopeful said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you had a bad day yesterday. I'm glad that you found something positive to think about and hope that today is much better. From my perspective, you seem like an awesome communicator, so hopefully you and your husband will be able to talk through the problem and come up with a solution. It sucks when you aren't on the same page, so I'm hoping for some relief for you.

C Lo said...

I am a firm believer in occasionally indulging in a good, long wallow. Don't feel guilty if you do. :)

stillhopeful said...

Sorry you had such a bad day yesterday... and I hope you and your husband are able to talk about the issue and resolve it. I think a major change in your life, like having a first baby, can bring any issues to light, especially when it comes to maturity and "growing up". I think you'll be surprised at how your man steps up when he becomes a father. I think needing to take care of a helpless infant does wonders for a guy...

looking4#3 said...

So sorry things are shitty!

Thoughts and prayers are with you.

As for your husband--give him hell. I don't know what he did, but if you're mad--he deserves it!!!!

Good Luck!!!
Thanks for your good wishes for tomorrow.

Lorraine said...

I hope things turn around for you tomorrow - although now that I typed that I will have the song from "Annie" stuck in my head for the next three days...

I think husbands have this idea that they have to do whatever they want before the baby is born, because they'll never be "free" again. Um, whatever dude.

He better turn around by tomorrow, too!

Mad Hatter said...

Hello dear friend! I'm sorry I wasn't able to respond to your posts on Friday...what a tough day you had! I hope the weekend has gone better in all respects...And I totally hear you on the husband front! Sometimes I feel like the only adult in our house! ;-)

looking4#3 said...

You make me worry when there is NO word from you since Friday!!
Thinking of you.
Hoping things are better.