Today has been a day of blessings unassumed. Things that just kind of happened, without my expecting them. Things that made me feel quiet and peaceful and happy.
I had lunch with a good friend. She looked great. She's the one whose husband has a brain tumor. She's the only person other than my husband (and all of you, of course!) who know about the FET cycle we are embarking upon. It was great to spend some time with her.
There were 3 adorable little girls at the table next to us at lunch. Maybe 5 or 6 years old. They all looked the same age, too. One with long curly hair. One with long straight hair. One with a short bob. Adorable. They giggled. Their mom smiled. They sipped chocolate milk. I actually felt happy to be sitting by them...rather than the feel of a knife in my gut.
Well, one thing happened today that increased my heartbeat and made my face go flush. It was an email from the IVF coordinator at my Clinic. The last email I sent her was to inquire about exercising. Apparently exercise needs to be approved (I think I read that Lupron can weaken bones, so you don't want to stress them). I got the thumbs-down for jogging, jump rope and anything strenuous.
Now before you start thinking I'm a fitness guru, I assure you I am not. I exercise a little and try to do so regularly. I also try to get the most bang for my buck. Jump rope is a quick way to burn calories. But if I don't exercise at all, I get plump in the rump. I also start to get fidgety.
I thought, hey, we have this recumbent exercise bike in the garage that we could drag inside and make room for. No weight-bearing there! So hubby and I dragged it in. I emailed the coordinator. Her response was: "You cannot use the exercise bike. You can walk, but no speed walking or power walking."
Jeepers. That's pretty tight. I'm kind of going nuts without the exercise and by evening each night I start hopping around the house...literally....which is probably without a doubt on the forbidden exercise list. But I can't contain myself!
Anyway, today I opened my email and there was a new message from the coordinator. The subject line read: Re: Exercise. I thought, now what?....no walking either?
I opened the message and began reading. She had simply emailed me by replying to my last message. She said she coordinated with the lab and if everything stays on track, my transfer is scheduled for Thursday, May 21st.
As in 22 days from today!!!!!
My head reeled. Okay....let's see, what needs to stay on track? My cheeks flushed. Do I even know what needs to stay on track??? I began storming through the house (probably breaking the "no power walking" rule) grasping and clutching at papers. Looking at schedules and numbers and appointments.
Okay, here is my "track":
(1) I have a follow up U/S Monday. If the cyst is gone then stop BCPs.
(2) Hope for AF to come by Friday May 8th. If she arrives by then, I need to have another U/S to be sure my lining is thin, my E2 is low and my ovaries are clear.
(3) If lining, E2 and ovaries cooperate, then I can start the Delestrogen.
(4) After some period of time on the Delestrogen, I have another U/S to be sure the lining is building up properly.
(5) If lining is good, then we are on for the 21st.
So, okay, a sequence of five things need to happen to stay on track. I'm a realist, you know. I have a quick flush of excitement and then I settle down and figure out the reality of things. It could happen as planned, and it might not. I'm okay with that.
But still, my heart is really happy today. I might need to go hop around the house a little.
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