Now I've done it. I went and got myself a job. I start on Monday. Monday! Remember the Prospective Employer? She called last week and said the waiting list of laid off attorneys has been cleared and she is now free to offer me the position.
I thought, yeah, yeah, I've heard something like this before. We'll see. Her assistant emailed me a contingent offer to which I responded with a contingent acceptance.
They're preparing my office. They gave me instructions about the parking garage. They quoted me a salary.
Oh boy, I think I'm actually going to have to go to work on Monday. How can this be?
Okay, I know you don't feel sorry for me. I know you've had to work right along, sneaking out to appointments and b/w draws. I know you've had to take phone calls at work you'd rather not take. You've been tired and cranky and over-worked and wanted to run screaming from your office at times. Trying to juggle work and all things IF/cycle related has been taxing. I know. I admire you, respect you and don't know how the hell you do it. And I don't expect you to sympathize with my having to get my tired butt off the couch and go to work.
But I want to whine for a minute anyway. Waaaaaah.
Who will lovingly tend my garden all day long? I won't be able to browse the internet and blog half the day. I will have to take the dogs to doggy daycare before work on the days neither my DH nor I are home. I am going to have to get up early. Early! I don't like early. Anything before 7:30 is still "last night" in my book. My life is about to become significantly more complicated.
Oh, I'm such a wimp. I didn't used to be a wimp. Being home has spoiled me - and I loved it. I was in such shock and was horrified when I learned I was being laid off. Looking back now, I truly believe it was the perfect answer to several prayers. I am grateful that I had this time and so many magical experiences. Each of them a gift.
I found our Clinic and was able to freely communicate with, and travel to, them. I found the blogsphere and all of you, my dear friends and sisters. I housebroke our dog who used to have accidents all the time. I planted a garden - for the first time ever! - and have been able to spend a lot of time watching it grow. I have been able to spend a lot more time with my DH, which has been so good for us. I got pregnant! And now I've found a job that I think will be much more fulfilling and worthy of my time and energy. The pay will be an enormous pay cut as compared to my job at the private firm, but I wouldn't trade any of the above for that six-figure salary. My life over the past 9 months has SO been worth the loss of that job.
Once I start the new job, I'll tell you more about it. For now, I have to think about what the heck I'm going to wear and go rooting through my closets! I haven't worn "real" clothes in a long, long time. I suppose shorts and t-shirts are still not appropriate office attire. Too bad.
7 months ago