Monday, August 3, 2009

Ups and Downs

A few ups and downs lately.

The biggest down is that my good friend emailed me that her husband's brain tumor has returned. The doctor said surgery is not an option this time. Her husband has only been home from the hospital for a month since being admitted with infection, spinal fractures and brain swelling. In the last 30 days he finally regained some strength, has had improved cognitive function, and even had the opportunity to throw out the first pitch for the home team at a local baseball game. Now they have to decide which medical treatment to go with. The past 8.5 months have been pure hell for them, and it's not over yet. I'm just so sad.

This one is an up and a down, rolled into one. That would be my nausea. Over the weekend it had a good grip on me. Not horrible, just constantly there. My best position was lying on my side on the couch. Can I just spend the next month that way? Today, though, I got up early and went to have b/w by 7am. No morning nausea, and minimal nausea this afternoon. Good thing or reason to worry? I'll just do both, thank you.

Another up is that I have an U/S on Wednesday. Hopefully it will stave off my fears for another week. I was going to wait to do my b/w while there for my appointment, but last night it occurred to me: when I had bleeding last week, the Clinic had me double my progesterone dose. Double! We don't even know what my level was at the time. What if the bleeding had nothing to do with the progesterone level? What if we are smoking that kid out in toxic levels of progesterone?! Yeah, that kept me awake for a while. Which is why I was at the lab by 7am this morning.

And, just taking note, when I have my U/S this week, the baby will be at the stage of growth where the baby stopped growing during my last pregnancy: 7w3d. So this is a big one for me. Of course every U/S is a big one, isn't it?

One final up - a garden update:

Cantaloupe nearly ready for picking! Peppers are huge (this is not the plant that the giant worm got to) but still not red! My tomatoes...I don't know...they just don't seem to want to turn red either. Not a one of them.




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11 comments:

Alex P said...

for not being a gardener, you've got some luscious looking veggies in your garden! Green peppers have always been my preference, I find the red ones get too sweet when you cook them into things... but the green ones taste amazing on the BBQ then with some sesame oil and sea salt, so even if these stay green, you'll still enjoy them Im sure!

Maybe the garden is a lesson in patience- good gigantic delicious veggies come to those who wait?

Oh, and has anyone else noticed the word verification thing has been shooting out randomly racy/slightly rude words lately? yesterday I had tosser, today I have notter, a few days ago I had "glide goo" it's very un nerving. Kindof reminds me of your Dr Creepy. Not really wrong, just kinda weird.

stillhopeful said...

Sorry about your friend's husband, so tragic... And on the up side - I'll be thinking about you on Wed, hoping everything goes perfectly!! I'm sure it will be a big relief when you get past this milestone. My next u/s is on Thursday morning, so a big week for both of us!

C Lo said...

I had this thing called hyperemesis gravidarum when I was pregnant and it's basically the worst "morning sickness" you can imagine, all the live long day. If you need tips, I'm your girl. Make sure your eating protein and staying really hydrated, especially in this ridiculous heat!

Scrambled Egg said...

Those peppers are huge! If they do turn red, let me know, I have a fantastic recipe!!

looking4#3 said...

So sorry about your friend's husband. I will be sure to send up mega prayers for them both!!
I was 93lbs 6 mths pregnant with my daughter. Like C Lo, I was horribly sick all the time. I did find peppermint a help!
Can't wait to hear all about sprout's wonderful strong BPM!!
The garden is really coming along. I will have to find out your secret?? Oh, and is that cantaloupe swaddled in pantyhose??

tireegal68 said...

Love the pantyhosed melon! So sorry about your friends husband. With you in spirit for the u/s and hoping your little one gets flying colors on the u/s! Good to hear what is going on in your life - take care:)

Fran said...

I am so so sorry for your friend...those news are just devastating...

You did right to get your b/w done, better be on the safe side (although I'm sure it'l all be ok!) and wednesday could not be here soon enough...your fears are completely normal, but just think that this is a new chance for things to be put right. Your little fighter will not give up, I am sure about it.
The garden looks fab BUT...what did I tell you??? Love, Fran

IVF 40+ said...

I didn't know peppers turned red - I thought they were grown that way!!! Ha, I am such a NY'r.

I admire your emotional fortitude. I have imagined how I will handle 'the last time' thing. I guess we must submit, surrender and all those good 's' words.

Thanks for your constant support.

cindyhoo2 said...

I am so sorry about your friend's husband. He sounds as though he has been terribly brave throughout his whole illness.

I think you are officially in the "going crazy" stage of being pg. IE: hating the days when m/s is bad BUT loving the m/s because it is a sign. Enjoying the m/s free days BUT getting scared without the symptom. Being excited after an u/s that shows all is well BUT not being able to hold onto the good results very long. etc etc etc. I can certainly understand where the fears are coming from.... but relax... all signs point to a healthy baby at this point. :) (young eggs and all!)

((hugs))

BB said...

First,I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's husband. It is so scary and sad. I'm sure your friend is extremely grateful for your friendship. Speaking from recent experience and loss, I couldn't imagine going through it without the amazing support of friends. You are doing everything you can. I will of course pray for the best.

Second, I'm with you on the nausea front. It is a good and bad thing sometimes. My nausea comes in spurts - who knows if it is normal or not.

Thirdly, this u/s is a big one for you and you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am, however, very confident that everything will be fine and your baby is going to be that much bigger.

Lastly, your garden looks awesome! My tomatoes are still green too. I'm fed up. If I get one red one, I'll be happy.

Keep breathing!

optimisticallyhopeful said...

Holy cow, look at those beautiful plants! I am amazed definitely impressed since the only plants I can keep alive are spider plants and aloes...no green thumb here!