Friday, May 22, 2009

Life 101

Welcome new follower! It's great to have you!

Upon the advice of our RE, we cancelled our FET cycle 3 days ago, just 2 days prior to the scheduled transfer. We could have proceeded if we wanted to, but we elected to heed her advice. The day after we cancelled, the RE emailed me. Among other things, she said, "I am of the firm belief that attention to every detail is key in this business." I agree wholeheartedly and am glad she is a perfectionist.

Why did my E2 get too high? Why did it continue to climb even when the D.elestrogen dosage was reduced? Who knows. I think I am acutely sensitive to medication. I've experienced it before...taking a standard dose of some med and hyper responding to it (let me tell you, laxatives are not a fun way to discover such a fact!). Well, it's no one's fault. Next time they will start with a lower dosage.

For now, I have to wait. Patience is not my strong suit. It's sort of an ironic fate, but life is that way, isn't it? Forcing us to learn the lessons we need to learn. Forcing us to face our weaknesses, our flaws and our vulnerabilities. Challenging us to remain strong in the face of adversity.

So I accept the bitter medicine (time) and do my best to show fate I am learning (not whining and complaining). In the mean time, I just breathe and try to be otherwise productive. I re-potted my tomato seedlings. I wrote three pages of manuscript (I'm trying to write a book). And I took the dogs on a long neighborhood walk. More about the walk tomorrow.


stillhopeful said...

Yeah, the waiting has to be tough, even though you know you did the right thing. But it sounds like you're making the most of your "time off". I remember when I was between IVFs I would fully take advantage of being able to drink, exercise, make plans I could be sure wouldn't have to be canceled... A small consolation, but at least something!

looking4#3 said...

I happen to be married to a man that has the most amount of patience I have ever seen!!! It is quite frustrating for me. I have NONE!! I really, really see where you are!!! You're doing GREAT and the idea that your RE is a perfectionist---WTG!!! She will get you that BFP!--and all this time you thought it was gonna be your husband to get you pregnant!!! haha
Have a great holiday weekend. Do something fun, crazy and intoxicating!!!
PS--Thanks for the post on my blog. It meant SO much!!

A Mom in Jacksonville, FL said...

Hate the waiting game...ugh!

Best wishes to you and your DH.


WiseGuy said...

Good Luck for your book....And I am glad that you took a decision and stayed by it...Trusting the doctor is very important..All the very best!


cindyhoo2 said...

I agree that waiting SUCKS!!! I try to be very accepting about time between things and time spent waiting, but it never works as well as I want it to. I am trying to stay in the moment and enjoy the present..... let me know if you figure out that secret. :) Congrats on the pages you wrote!!