There seems to be a problem with Blogger. I've tried to leave comments on a few people's blogs, but when it comes to typing in the verification word, the screen won't let me. But I'm reading!
I need to come clean with you guys. Yesterday I went to the store and bought half a dozen pee sticks. First I researched which are the most sensitive. Then I bought 6 of them.
I peed on a stick yesterday. The reason I didn't tell you is because, well, I wasn't sure what I saw or didn't see. I carried the used stick into the glaring, blinding sunlight. I turned the stick this way and that, rotating it up and down. Was there a second line? No, it's white. Well....maybe. There definitely was NOT a line. There did seem to be a shadow. Do shadows count?
Then I reasoned that there must be a chemical in the white pad that is triggered by the pee. When the control stripe is triggered, the chemical absorbs the pee and turns pink. There must be a second stripe of chemical waiting to be triggered by HCG. Maybe I was looking so closely, that I was seeing the shadow created by the chemical.
Today I went for my job interview. I left feeling the way I did after law school final exams. I had no idea how I did - maybe it went great, maybe it didn't. But I would love the job because (1) they work on really interesting and important stuff, (2) it took me 7 minutes to drive there from my house, and (3) free parking. Well, a few other reasons too. The guy I interviewed with said it would be "a few days" before they make a decision. At least he didn't say "a few weeks."
So I came home and called my husband and got online and had some lunch and waited. Then I had to do it again.
I peed on another stick.
Stupid super-sensitive, early detection, expensive sticks. Well....is it a line? Is a a shadow? Is it anything?????
Here it is:
Then I remembered that I had bought a box of like 17 OPK tests at Co.stco a while ago. Of course all the OPKs are long gone, but it came with a single pregnancy pee stick. I went to get it (it was hiding in a back closet from the last time we had company over). It was a digital!
Thankfully I had peed in a cup. So I swished the digital stick in the pee.
(sorry for the suspense)
P! BFP! BFP! Holy Tamale! It wasn't just a shadow of chemical.
I guess we'll know more on Monday when I have my first beta, but it looks like I'll be going back Wednesday for a second beta. Last night my husband asked me how soon we would know how many babies there are in there. I smiled and said, "You're so sure, aren't you?" And he said, "Well, yeah." Looks like he was right.
He doesn't know yet! I want to surprise him. One time I bought an adorable onesie as part of too-many-gifts for a friend's baby shower. I kept the onesie. If I can find it, I should get it out and hand it to him sometime tonight and say, "Think you can work one of these things?" The glow of my face ought to explain everything.
I know I have a long road ahead and many hurdles to clear, but this time I am optimistic because the egg and sperm that made this baby were donated by proven donors.
I want to thank you all for all of the support, love, encouragement and joy you have given me over the past few months. I know some of you are on the threshold of your own cycle, and I am praying and hoping and wishing that you get your BFP.
I also want to say to all of you that I love you all for being the best cyber sisters a girl could have. I am heartbroken for my friends Looking4#3 who recently lost her pregnancy and Musicmakermomma who just today got a BFN. I so wanted everyone's dreams to come true. Even in my joy, I feel sorrow.
4 weeks ago